if there’s a time to be on the east coast, it is definitely during the autumn season.
i had forgotten how beautiful it is to just stand outside during this time of change.
in this part of the globe, it feels the entire world is changing – and it isn’t just the appearance…it’s the coolness that arrives, the wind that stays constant, the amazing colors that leave you speechless, the shiver down your spine that spreads endless amounts of energy throughout your whole body, the crystal clear cycles of the moon and a sense of mystery that shifts with every swirl of leaves that literally fly into spontaneous directions.

how appropriate that during this time of change and clearness so brisk that i should settle into my new path & my first Saturn’s Return. the path into motherhood & a break from a career that has consumed a lot of my attention & energies for the past 10 years.
would anyone have believed it?
all those times i claimed i would leave the industry?
the many claims to the day that i don’t do it anymore – did you believe them? did i?
how many times did the grass seem so greener when i’d say “being a mother and a housewife sounds pretty good right now” ??

whether we believed it or not, that time is now.
and how did alleycat end up on the Straight & Narrow?
the most obvious is the pregnancy. but the one i haven’t shared with most is the new job.

it’s been hard to face with everyone for it is different in so many ways i had to come to grips with it and fully understand before letting others see.

i left my executive-bound job without really knowing where i was going.
only knowing what i didn’t want right now. only turning from where i DIDN’T want my energy to be. when a posting on craig’s list not that long after brought me to where i am today. Managing a Yoga Studio.

it’s a part time position that pays nothing.
i’d rather not compare the difference in my income.
we are moving out of montclair so that we may be able to buy our baby some clothes or maybe food, more importantly – a house.
i think living in a building and shlepping groceries, laundry, and baby in an elevator will really help me appreciate the house that much more. pulling into our own driveway will feel so good after a couple of years of parking in the lot and walking around to the main entrance of the building (with a million things in arms)

the point is that life is mellow now. it’s positive and full of light.
i go to the grocery store during the DAY. i make dinner nearly every day at a reasonable hour (most of the time) and my work is now full of OM. =)
i had started going to pre-natal yoga when i found out i was carrying my baby.
it really helped me see and feel life in a new way. especially my relationship with the munchkin. (we love eachother already!)
Then the job opportunity came and everything just felt right.

the Straight & Narrow is an adventure in itself but it feels amazing.
it feels like a new high never felt before. a new place in life but where everything i’ve lived and felt and grew into comes into play.

this is me now. i cannot tell you about me in a few months or me in a few years.
but now is good.