I JUST WANT TO STAY IN BED!!

i’m a bit shaken up over how lazy i’ve gotten over the past few weeks or so.
suddenly i’ve cut down to ONE yoga class per week. no walking. no thoughts about swimming.
i don’t feel like doing laundry, cooking for five (i have house guests), or mopping the floor.

i’ve been studying this but come up with many ideas.

it could be that East Coast Winter Thing. it gets so dam frigid and gray outside. who wants to go for a brisk walk in that? or even get in the car to go the Y? plus, the holidays hit pretty hard before you know it. Channukah hit at the beginning of december this year! by the time Moni’s birthday hit (Jan.fOurtH – it’s when i mark the end of the holidays) it’s no WONDER i’m pOOped! and why are the hOlidays so exhausting anyway? was i always this pooped afterwards or is that i’m pregnant and carrying an extra fifty pounds around?

speaking of pregnancy…could THAT be what’s got me dragging my heels? is entering the third trimester such a milestone that i’d feel it so? of course, we all know the women that worked out EVERYDAY until the DAY BEFORE they gave birth – or continued working their sixty-hour weeks, commuting into the city until the end while still taking care of their three other kids at home. clearly i’m not one of THOOOSE..

but then i thought, what’s so bad about wanting to sleep until eleven? i mean, i purposely set up my life so that i WOULDN’T have to wake up at five AM everyday to go work fourteen hours, didn’t i? i wanted to take it easy and here i am thinking i may be depressed because i don’t jump out of bed at seven. although there are the women lifting weights in my shoes, there happen to be many yogis and mommies that feel we should listen to our bodies and take it easy, enjoying the pregnancy to the fullest.
geez, my mom doesn’t think a woman should strain too much during her PERIOD! that may seem quite old school but it doesn’t seem so bad to recognize all that a woman’s body can go through in her lifetime, the strength we are born with, the hurdles we’re jumping constantly, while smiling and looking pretty the whole time!

nonetheless, i’m feeling lazier. i also realized i have not been getting ready for bed BEFORE midnight at all this winter. i’m not sure what time i’m actually getting to sleep, and let’s not forget the countless times i’m up throughout the night using the bathroom. i also get woken up by the baby’s incredibly sharp moves and then spend some time trying to ‘connect’… so maybe i’m just CATCHING UP ON SLEEP! so many people tell me to take advantage of sleeping and relaxing while i can, because once the baby is here – i may not be able get much of that! and maybe it’s just the Rest of the World that makes you feel that lounging around is a bad thing. i’m not pigging out or anything!

i still feel maybe i wouldn’t be so swollen if i was more active during these last couple of months.
i know i shouldn’t let myself get depressed (lord knows i can find SOMETHING) and perhaps once we’re alone in our new home, i can jump back into a routine or schedule to help me stay on track. find a middle ground.
get to a few yoga classes a week, at least! my work is certainly not that draining and it shouldn’t hurt SO much to get up and go the few times a week i actually go.

final thought?
maybe i’m not depressed OR exhausted – just thinking about it tOO muCh!!!