whenever i close my eyes,
i see your face.
every single time,
you are the first vision.

i see your eyes,
they’re open, they’re closed.
i see your mouth,
it’s puckered, it cries out.

whenever i open my eyes,
i look for your face.
you are my first thought,
every single time.

we spend so much time,
we stand, we sit.
i take you with me,
we lie down, we rock.

you fall asleep on my chest,
i stare at every move, every breath.
time passes and i keep you there,
just squeezing you, kissing you.

i don’t mind holding you some extra minutes
i don’t mind minutes becoming hours.
minutes, hours, days become one heavy moment,
a moment, an emotion, a time i capture with my heart.

never has a man been loved by me
never has my family been loved by me
never have i loved myself
the way that i love you.

EVERYONE TELLS ME TO TREASURE THIS TIME NOW, THEY TELL ME THE TIME GOES BY SO FAST AND BEFORE YOU KNOW IT THEY’RE GROWN. PERHAPS ONE DAY I’LL EXPRESS THIS EASIER, THIS TIME WILL BE MORE TANGIBLE..BUT I CAN’T IMAGINE THAT THE TIME THAT IS COMING ISN’T ALSO A TIME TO TREASURE. THAT WHEN “THEY’RE GROWN” IT’S STILL AN EXPERIENCE THAT OVERWHELMS. I HAVE CREATED LIFE, I HAVE A DAUGHTER, I CARE FOR HER AND MY LIFE HAS CHANGED PERMANENTLY. JUST LIKE EVERYONE WARNED. PICTURES CANNOT CAPTURE WHAT I SEE AND EXPERIENCE, BUT EVERY NOW AND THEN MY CELL PHONE HAPPENS TO BE CLOSE BY….