i had an epiphany in the shower tonight.
(if we can call it an epiphany)

there may not be anyone who truly truly gets me.
who is present every step of my emotional path,
every moment, every breath.
but would we want that anyway?

if we truly understood everything about each other,
how and why we react in each different way;
what makes up our individual emotional composition,
would we be together?
what would be the point?
wouldn’t we drive each other crazy?

it is not possible that i am the only person who feels as complex as i do.
we all go through fifty thoughts mixed with thirty emotions in a matter of minutes.
it happens to us all. we barely get it ourselves when it happens;
so how is he supposed to know?
how does anyone know?

time loving each other will take us to a more complex level of understanding.
loving through time, surviving the tests, facing the storms…
every day we are a step closer
i am glad to be on the path.

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there was this time, lulu was crying in the car
he jumped in the backseat to calm her
they fell asleep together.
i love him.