you are 18 months already and i am 30 years old.
“they grow so fast”, they say. yes, they do – but only as fast as time “flies” on a regular basis. time is flying only because it’s been so amazing.
only because each day is more beautiful than the day before.

i could sit here and break my writer’s block with an entry filled with details on how quickly the time has gone, and how i blinked and she was so big and chatty that i do not know where the time has gone. but honestly i have been as present as i could be every single day.
i have jumped into the intensity of each day with my heart wide open.
i have done my very best not to miss a single beat; to catch every moment that i could.
if i missed my family for two days straight, i make the next two days feel like four.

in truth, she is quite different than she was 18 months ago and it is truly magical to watch a person be born and grow while you guide that being with no real knowledge of what you are doing.
(she’s actually getting real funny. my kid makes me laugh – what a joy)
and my family has, in fact, made a move to the west coast creating more intensity to life.
but i do look forward to tomorrow the same as i looked forward to today and yesterday.
i try and remind myself to stay in my body and not lose myself in the intensity of life and mayhem that is my emotional body. i continue to wear my heart on my sleeve as it keeps me true.
i continue longing to be in fifteen places at once as everyone’s family grows and as everyone grows farther away in body and mind.

in this new year (where i didn’t even attempt to find services to attend) – i wish for everyone’s family to continue to grow. with so many families growing and “starting up” by so many people i know – i can only shed tears of joy, long to be there with you, and ask G-d and the universe to bring you peace always. good vibes for good people!

L’Shana Tova

I will keep catching up with me here soon…